Sex and Breakup

My dream was weird last night.

I was in Brownsville with my family and friends. Then, Nick and I decided to take a little break from each other. 

I rode with Candy in Nick's white truck. It was cloudy and little chilly. Then suddenly, there's a fence and Candy couldn't stop it. She ran over the fence and there was an ice all over the place. The truck was spinning and hit the pole. Candy and I got out of the truck through windows and went on the back of the truck and got off. She went back home and I went to another town. 

Suddenly, I met Tila Tequila and I'm on reality show with 2 other girls. We were competing for her love. She was shorter than me, but so hot! We all ate food and tried to persuade her to choose one of us. It was weird, we all kissed her and she wanted me because I'm a best kisser. Then she want me to eat her out. So I did. It was my first time. I didn't like it. I let other girls to fight for her. I left the town and went to Nick's house to see how's he doing and if he still have a feeling for me. Well, a girl came out with light brown hair, prettier, slim, flat tummy, nice boobs. I asked her if I can talk to Nick. She said "No, who are you?" I told her I'm Laura and I'm his fiance. She said "Not anymore, ... Nick!" Nick came out and was surprised to see me like he's in trouble. I asked him what's going on. Then Dani and my father showed up. Sitting behind me and wondering if everything's ok. I was hurt and Nick was telling me that he's with other girl now. I was confused and thought he really loved me. His other girl was being a bitch. So I dragged Nick away from her to talk to him for a moment to clear things up. He said he really like her and she's different and he's sorry like his love for me didn't exist. He also said his mother likes her a lot already. I was heartbroken. I hold it in and swallowed really hard. Hold my tears back and left. My sister, Dani said "See, I told you. He's an asshole. He don't love you". I don't want her to be right. 

Lost Everything

I was living with my parents and bunch of siblings. I have like 3 brothers and 3 sisters. They are all young like from age of 3-13. I have like 3 homes. M uncles and aunts don't want to see me anymore. Then, later my dad said he had to move to another city. I don't know if my parents are still together or divorced. I was still living in the trailer, but dad sold it. 

I got mad because I want a home for myself. Dad was walking away from me and I walked outside and screaming in the rain. "Where will I live?!" I asked my dad. He turned around and gave me this cruel look. "Do I still have the other house?" He said "Nope". "Any home for me to live?" He nodded his head and walked to his van. I was crying and I was all soak. I walked to the van to say good-bye to all my brothers and sisters. They don't want to leave with him. They begged me to go with them. I told them that I can't because I'm getting old and it's time for me to be on my own. I gave them my hug and told them to be good and they will deserve something good. I will be always thinking about them. 

I left to a big white church and it looks like a courthouse, but it's a dorm itself for all the armies and nurses. The people look like in the movie "Pearl Harbor". The way they dressed are just like the movie. I walked upstairs and walking passed by bunch of soldiers in their uniform. I entered in my own room. My room is huge! It's like an apartment.  I have 2 roommates and they're both hearing. They had this shower cap on to cover their rollers and they are in their robe. I sat on my own bed and cried. One of my roommates sat next to me, she's black and she's kind of round, but very sweet. She gave me a hug and tried to cheer me up. The other one is white and thin. She was watching tv. I pulled out "People" magazine and  looked through it. I found a note that the other guy posted it in the magazine for me. "We are meeting tonight, please dress classic and sophiscated tonight. I will get you sign up to be with me." I didn't know that I'm not US citizen and he is asking me to married him so I can stay in US and became a US citizen. I was like "Huh? No! I need to call Nick. I hope he still wants to marry me."

I picked up the phone and called him, my heart was  beating so fast and I was breathing so hard. There were few rings. Suddenly,   I woke up. 

New Dream

I had a dream in two nights ago. It was really short and quick. I am not sure if I had this dream before, but I don't really remember.

I dreamt about my own wedding. It was nice and huge. But not huge huge. Just a nice wedding. Everyone looked really nice. Nick looked really great. He's in a good shape and I was in a good shape. I had a really nice body and all tanned. My hair was long and dark brown. All wavy and curly. I looked gorgeous! I was like "WOW!" We all danced and sat by our own wedding table and I talked to Nick and he couldn't keep his eyes off of me. It was a great feeling. This happiness feeling. And that was it.

I also dream about a dog. I don't know why, but that probably explains about my new puppy. Desiring to meet my new puppy. Heh.